lundi 31 décembre 2012

About life

"My Momma always said you've got to put the past behind you before you can move on."
-Forrest Gump

This will not just be the typical post but I guess I wanted to share with you my thoughts about life.
We all have rough times and bad years and sometimes it's really hard to keep up with all the ups and downs that happens in a lifetime... but I guess, it's just amazingly worth it to have faith and move forward. I am far from being the only one in this situation, sometimes life becomes completely foggy and it's hard to see hope. I guess, we all have even a tiny bit of fear or the future. But it's okay. Really. It's okay to be scared and to feel powerless sometimes. It just means you are human, after all. In our time, the norm is perfection. If boys succeed, I'm 100 percent okay that girls should be able to do the same, but the way is filled with pitfalls and it's so easy to feel underestimated and sh*t. And I'm pretty sure this is not good for our health, why can't we see we really are enough ? Sure it would feel great to be perfect, but for how long ? And for what... ? I guess I'm just more drawn to progress. Progress is trying to find your way and who you are, and this is much more efficient than just being in search of a flawless life. But still, I am aware that most "perfect" people also had to deal with difficulties and progress, but you see what I mean because even the word perfect doesn't really seem to have an actual real life representation but you get my point, I hope.

Since 2010, it's been pretty hard for me to achieve the things I wanted, because I had to constantly deal with a battle against illness and pain. Some days, I just wanted to get lost. Of course, many times I wondered "why me" or "what have I done". The answer is simple because there are no reason why life threw this at me. And I stopped looking for this artificial answer, just knowing it's life and I've got to make the best of it. So, I've always been ready to fight until my voice was heard, until I could be proud of myself. I recently got my driving license and even though it seems like it can be easy to get, I had hard times in the process of getting the license. Now there's a new life for me now, new doors opened for new adventures. It's not just about the license, it's really about life, the choices you make and the things you actually do or initiate. Something changed in me, I'm realizing that taking the bull by its horns is often the right way to do it. I'm ready to be afraid of the next steps, I know how to manage the fear of unknown even though I don't know what's coming up next, but still, I'm ready, and even better : I'm really excited. I can't wait for making plans, create things and move on. I've found a way to get things done by achieving small goals during the months, and every time it really made me happy. It's the little things in life that creates great things. You know how the say "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" and guess what ? If you're reading this, please just cherish the fact that you're alive and able to fulfill your dreams.
Just wishing you the strenght to realize it and go for it ! No regrets.

By the way, we wish you all an amazing party tonight and all the very best for the year to come ! xoxo

2 commentaires:

camilla a dit…

great post, thanks for sharing

Anonyme a dit…

sooo true words!!! thank you